Pain

7/4/12 @ 0358 hrs

Pain Pain so much Pain
Like a soda can, twist, crush
Takes my breath away.

Day in and day out
Can't bear this pain much longer.
Bad thoughts kept at bay.

So tired, no sleep
An hour here or three there
Pain keeps sleep away

Psoratic shit!
Cover my body in scales
Keep your arthritis.

Easy ways to stop
All end in tears and blaming
Pain pills not enough

Pain meds, pain meds. Ugh!
Don't do much of anything
Eases to dull roar.

Family clueless
No way to describe to them
Keep it to myself.

They won't believe me.
No visible cause for pain.
Suffer it alone.

Another night lost
Up again in so much pain
Driving me insane.

Be Jekyll or Hyde
Personality twisted
Lost myself in pain.

Can't keep putting them,
Through this roller coaster ride
of good and bad days

Twists me inside out
Steals away my happiness
Leaves a shell behind.

Finally relief.
Enough to breath easier
And maybe short nap....

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5/14/12 Heartbreak Haiku

Life is like the clouds

Always changing shape mid way

Never predicted

Lay with me awhile

Bed of grass and sheet of clouds

Sweet serenity

Slow paced country life

City speed, eye opener

Where did the break go?

Dreams of easy life

Come crashing down around me

When the thunder comes

That’s it, I’ve had it!

Straw that broke the donkey’s back….

Missing my birthday

Making sure you knew

How cherished and loved you were

Was a waste of time

Happy Mother's Day

To all of my moms

Thank you for raising me right

Happy Mother's Day

5/6/12 In The Line of Haiku

Oh I'm so sorry

When you need something from me

Is when I exist.

Just a fantasy

Fueled by desperate dreams

False reality.

Wayward steps I took

Away from He who loved me

Out of presumed hurts

Feelings over Faith

Led me away from my path

Willingly I went

One path we walked

Lost somewhere along the way

Sight of who we were

 

5/5/12 Paint Your Haiku

Fell off band wagon

Picking myself up once more

Dust self off, start again

Getting back on track

Is so very hard to do

When body rebels.

Diets so tricky

Living with a saboteur

He sneaks in ice cream

I can see myself

Healthy, active, fit and trim

Only in my head

Rewire thinking

Telling myself yes I can

For my Nathan's sake.

4/30/12 White Haiku Black Heart

Dark moods dark haiku

Not meaning to be so emo

Just can't help myself

That time of the month

Does crazy things to my brain

Roller coaster ride

Last straw, cold turkey

Cutting all my ties to you

For sanity sake.

Painful images

Mock me as I admire.

Implicit taunting.

Like a bee to blooms

Fickle Amorosity

Searching for sweeter.

How long will I ache?

How many haiku will help,

Till I hurt no more?

4/24/13 The Bridges of Haiku County

I ask for too much

To know you inside and out

Just a hint of you.

Lustful desires

Is all I'm good for it seems

But not good enough.

Craving Attention

Knowing I'll cave to your whims

Using kryptonite

S'pose I can't blame you

For my addiction to you

But you fan the flames

When no one else will

When you have an itch to scratch

You come seeking me.

Are you boy or girl?

How can I ever be sure?

You wont give me proof.

4/23/12 Dirty Haiku

Must I continue

Carrying conversation

With one word answers?

Talking goes two ways

Wonder why I don't contact?

Give talk to get talk.

Hang Em' Haiku

4/22/12

Another year older

Age is just a state of mind

Tell that to my bod

Do unto others

Was always my golden rule

Why can't it be theirs?

Two bucks and some change

That's all it would have taken

For a birthday smile

Define the word tool

Using something or someone

For your convenience

Going cold turkey

No more hugs or kisses please

No more being used

Give give give and give

Nothing given in return

Barely your first name

Fantasy lover

Making me believe you cared

Nothing more than that

The Good, the Bad, the Haiku

Don't ask me why the slight Eastwood theme of titles, it just stuck and it tickled my fancy.

1/23/12

Another six months

Going to work in the dark

Six months till day light

"I'll miss you Mommy"

"I'll miss you too Boogie Boy"

"Do your best in school"

"You're so beautiful"

"And you're so very handsome"

Our cuddle time talk

"Mommy come watch this"

Mario cart champion

Little gamer boy

Hi-yah! Block Kick Chop!

Padawan in the making

Starts in the Dojo

3/31/12

Anxiety fills

My entire being with

Dread, fear and failure

Procrastination

Has been my worst enemy

Rely on myself

Feel like a failure

Don't live up to their standards

Full of shame and guilt

Fist Full of Haiku

8/29/11

Tone of voice says all

Sarcasm in all it's finest

Cuts quick to the heart

Feeling bad enough

You know how to make it worse

By the words you say

Moody Grumpy Crap

Sometimes hate being a girl

P M S just sucks!

10/24/11

Egotistic Queens

Narcissistic Attitudes

Always about you

Tantrum, pout and sulk

Hissy fit when you're ignored

Sarcastic cover

Who are you to me?

Not husband, father, brother

Don't presume to count!

Thousands of miles

Never known me or seen me

Crave my attention

A Few Haiku More

8/22/11

The light of my life

Four feet, blond hair, gray green eyes

I'd die without you

School is in session

You're getting to be so smart

The world is all yours

New teacher, new class

Nervous anticipation

New friends, new faces

My hopes are for you

To succeed at being you

Whatever you do

Ten fingers ten toes

Two lovely eyes and a nose

My perfect lil' boy

World Wide Wrestling

Monday Night Raw or Smack Down

Too cute pretending

8/27/11

Wind blowing my hair

Me, topless, sunshine, freedom

It's a Jeep thing dewd!

Solo this weekend

Camping Upper Chaquita

 Hope my boys have fun

Job Security

Also known as idiots

Empty villages

A few haiku

In times of great stress, joy, sorrow, frustration I turn to haiku to vent my feelings.

8/15/11

Oh light of my life

Getting bigger every day

You're my everything

My little dragon

learning what is right and wrong

Protector of man

Fighting all the time

Hateful, hurtful, painful words

Out of lips I've kissed

So very tired

No energy to fight still

Is solo better?

Little words, sharp teeth

Used to inflict heart felt pain

Not even sorry

One small word 'sorry'

Said one too many times now

Has no meaning left

So sick and tired

Of these little fights of ours

Wearing me down fast

Why do we do this?

Little fights that cut and sting

Is that all we feel?

Last word, last word, last

You just had to have it huh

Very big of you

Some surprise for me

You cranky, moody, grumpy

Take it out on me