Pain

7/4/12 @ 0358 hrs

Pain Pain so much Pain
Like a soda can, twist, crush
Takes my breath away.

Day in and day out
Can't bear this pain much longer.
Bad thoughts kept at bay.

So tired, no sleep
An hour here or three there
Pain keeps sleep away

Psoratic shit!
Cover my body in scales
Keep your arthritis.

Easy ways to stop
All end in tears and blaming
Pain pills not enough

Pain meds, pain meds. Ugh!
Don't do much of anything
Eases to dull roar.

Family clueless
No way to describe to them
Keep it to myself.

They won't believe me.
No visible cause for pain.
Suffer it alone.

Another night lost
Up again in so much pain
Driving me insane.

Be Jekyll or Hyde
Personality twisted
Lost myself in pain.

Can't keep putting them,
Through this roller coaster ride
of good and bad days

Twists me inside out
Steals away my happiness
Leaves a shell behind.

Finally relief.
Enough to breath easier
And maybe short nap....

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5/14/12 Heartbreak Haiku

Life is like the clouds

Always changing shape mid way

Never predicted

Lay with me awhile

Bed of grass and sheet of clouds

Sweet serenity

Slow paced country life

City speed, eye opener

Where did the break go?

Dreams of easy life

Come crashing down around me

When the thunder comes

That’s it, I’ve had it!

Straw that broke the donkey’s back….

Missing my birthday

Making sure you knew

How cherished and loved you were

Was a waste of time

Happy Mother's Day

To all of my moms

Thank you for raising me right

Happy Mother's Day

5/6/12 In The Line of Haiku

Oh I'm so sorry

When you need something from me

Is when I exist.

Just a fantasy

Fueled by desperate dreams

False reality.

Wayward steps I took

Away from He who loved me

Out of presumed hurts

Feelings over Faith

Led me away from my path

Willingly I went

One path we walked

Lost somewhere along the way

Sight of who we were

 

5/5/12 Paint Your Haiku

Fell off band wagon

Picking myself up once more

Dust self off, start again

Getting back on track

Is so very hard to do

When body rebels.

Diets so tricky

Living with a saboteur

He sneaks in ice cream

I can see myself

Healthy, active, fit and trim

Only in my head

Rewire thinking

Telling myself yes I can

For my Nathan's sake.

4/30/12 White Haiku Black Heart

Dark moods dark haiku

Not meaning to be so emo

Just can't help myself

That time of the month

Does crazy things to my brain

Roller coaster ride

Last straw, cold turkey

Cutting all my ties to you

For sanity sake.

Painful images

Mock me as I admire.

Implicit taunting.

Like a bee to blooms

Fickle Amorosity

Searching for sweeter.

How long will I ache?

How many haiku will help,

Till I hurt no more?